these 3 bags will be added to my collection around Friday afternoonish...

the spark between us is turning into a little ...flame...

The standard of beauty is just ridiculous, it’s unfair. Now to be beautiful you have to be light and have long hair and a big butt. That’s just stupid. If your lips aren’t small or your nose isn’t contoured enough…you’re less than. Sometimes I feel like I’m not beautiful because I have big lips or just because of the other features I have. I had problems growing up and I was teased a lot. People don’t see inner beauty anymore. It hurts me to go online and see “light skin vs. dark skin” stuff. Beauty is more than what’s on the inside.

March 08..date night..

i went on my first date with....Desean ....(he's a looker) ...omg guys i fell asleep in the movies...HALLPASS was so boring to me..but my dinner was sooo good...
he's nice he's sweet ...so sweet..& there's defiantly a ....spark
BUT...i dont know what to do with a spark..with a little bit of wind it can easy go out ...but i guess it can easily become a flame too...
im sooo not going to throw him under the bus...yet
he's a great guy & his foundation is sorta perfect...im just waiting on the flaws..the only one i can find is he doesnt have a dog : (

1. car & motorcyle
2. home owner...none of that "my mama lives with me" shit
3. nice job
4. gentleman
5. NO KIDS!!..I REPEAT NO KIDS!
6. & most importantly..HE'S NOT A BULLSHITTER....yet

he's a great guy...as of now..my friend told me just keep going out with him ..so that little spark wont go out..anytime soon...sooooo....-> (date on friday)...
the only thing that bothered me..he kept telling people i was his girl...IM NOT HIS GIRL NOR DO I WANT TO BE -__-


most importantly...he doesnt tell me no...& i love that

are you sure you want to give your heart to someone…now doesnt that look rather painful -___- …i  would think so...imagine how ur body is now that ur hearts' in someones hand....lifeless

Accept that fact that I’m not the friendly ”girl next door” female.. if i was to live beside u..im the “girl next door that wouldn’t even look ur way” …if u were to say my name..of course i’ll say wassup..but do it on my own?…strong negative.
I’m beyond sarcastic, I’ll make fun of you without saying “j/k”…I’ll take a joke/prank to the next level..u might even call me an “asshole”
I’m super feisty…I’ll tell u exactly what i want..how i want & when i want it..& if i don’t get it i wont nag..I’ll accept it and move on…
i always think of the worst..simply because wishful thinking gets u hurt..
i cant pretend how i feel..so i wont.
i go through friends & guys like the speed of light…i don’t keep worthless people around..
if you accept the fact that im super weird..i have the coolest voices in my head telling me jokes hourly…i have moods when I’d rather be super distance from the world..& then during a heated weeks argument…I’d randomly set up romantic nite…just for two..
seriously tho..im random..accept it. … i have.

foundation..."fix"

so i recently just ran outta my makeupforever HD foundation…swear i thought the world was gonna end…but then i was like ok..i guess i can just use some of MAC’s studiofix until i go to sephora
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i hated it…perfect example of upgrading…THEN downgrading …i hated it…i soooo saw the difference felt the difference…hated the… difference..
but then i went to sephora & although i love my HD..i wanted to try nars sheer matte….sooooooooooo i did….& soooooooooooo…i pretty much love it
#thatisall

#saturdaynight

just found these pics + more in my phone monday morning...

so me & my girls went to a house party on sat…
long story short… one of our girls OD’d on alcohol ..so we were taking care of her 1/2 the time..
fastforward
me: ….i want him
keeve: who
me: the guy in the red fitted
keeve:(2 boys had red hats on) lol which one!!!
me:…him
next thing i know..he’s directly in my face..all i remember is….
me: dont i know u from somewhere
him:ciara
me: uhhhhhh hi....wow nando….u look different in a distance
(old joint that use to txt my phone)
then the next thing i know we were talking…(i just dont remember what it was about)…everything is playing back in my head …like a slideshow …just photos and short clips..
swear thats the worst part of drinking…u dont remember…..
everythingggggg

i just remember he TOOK a kiss from me

ello mates

i already have a tumblr...& its nice..i love it...but i have a super strong feeling im going to love this wayyyyyy more....